The song that started this post goes:
‘Better is on Lord, Better is on, Better is on Before, But when I look back & I remember the law, Better is on Before.’
I often get awoken with a song, from childhood, that to my very literal thinking mind makes no sense, or too much sense & I struggle to concentrate, lol, & for me this song makes no sense, but its catchy so I added it back into my current bank/catalogue of ‘Praise & Worship’
See thatās the beautiful thing about God and the mysteries of Him and the Kingdom, what you may think is small, in God’s hands He can use it unimaginably. Google search the story of 5 loaves and 2 fish, you found it, donāt wanna read it? ā YouTube a kidās video to tell you the parable in under 5mins.
Good, great, if you havenāt go, now, cos spoilers ahead.
Jesus multiplied 5 loaves of bread & 2 fish to feed 5,000 men (that number does not included women or children, so we are looking at wayyy more) AND still had 12 baskets left over.
HOW?! How is that even possible ā I honestly donāt believe the best mathematician could work it out. Cos it doesnāt add up! It doesnāt make sense.
After a good few years of wrestling with this now, when Iām asking God for help,
I have come to my own equation to help me get by,
1 + 1 = Proverbs 3 : 5-6
āTrust in theĀ LordĀ with all your heart,
And lean not on your own understanding;
In all your ways acknowledge Him,
And He shallĀ direct your paths.ā (NKJV)
Itās taken me a while to get here, and it hasnāt been easy at all.
If youāre like me, you might still be wondering and thinking āBut, I still donāt get?ā
Letās take a look at part of the scripture again, and try and break it down.
āTrust in the Lord with all your heart and LEAN NOT ON YOUR OWN UNDERSTANDINGā
See one of the biggest keys Iām learning about Christ is, when he is calling you, and qualifying you to do something, it doesnāt have to make sense to anyone but you and HIM.
I know a shock right, you was expecting me to say, someone is gonna affirm you and say –Yes this is exactly what you must do x y & z full road map. I know me too, I remained stuck in that thought for years.
Fun Fact: I was baptised when I was 15 ā I only started to know and have a personal relationship with Jesus at 30 and ‘Iām currently writing this at 35.‘
Bonus Fun Fact: As this is ‘a lost file’, at the time of posting I am almost 37 & am releasing this, as I have found history repeating itself, but I had already worked out the answer, & I just needed to remind myself of who I am (resume regular programming, lol)
If you are waiting for someone to co-sign it, you will be waiting for a very long time.
However, what I will say to you, there are people who God when you start to walk with Him, that will have conversations with you/who you will listen to, that will speak into things that only YOU will know because of spending time in your secret place with Him & it will be a confirmation of what He has already said.
Back to the song that started this, I bet your all wondering what it has to do with all of this, lol
This song, as universal as it may be to some, has hidden memories that are exclusive to me & my walk with Christ. ā I didnāt know or think this initially, as you 1st read, I had to seek Christ for myself 1st, however in my seeking, I am learning/discovering as I go.
Every time I ask Him why, I trust Him, I donāt put my logic to it, I acknowledge Him, lean on Him and let Him guide my path.
(LeaLea’s Lost files)
Date Created Sunday, 18 June 2023 at 11:01 pm
